Secret hush hush blah blah

I've been having a hard time sleeping for at least 10 days.  Even trying harder the last two days I don't feel like I've recovered enough to "resume" a normal bedtime.  Maybe it's the season change, the light change, the diet change, the happiness change, the relationship changes, the parent changes, the job change, the friendship changes, political changes.  Maybe it's just that none of this seems like it's me.  I'm out of touch with me.  Sleep is essential for me to even try to get a handle on that.  Also, alone time.  Lots and lots of it.  And lack of pressure from others to fulfill their own needs.

Well.

Selfish much?

OK, I'm an introvert.  I need what I need, though, and isn't that always the case?  When we expect others to give a crap about our needs, or confuse our needs with desires or wishes, that's a problem.  Maybe I'm not seeing myself as "needed" in any important sense.  Maybe I "need" myself more than others do.

I'm about to go over to Jacque's at her request.  I wonder if this is something I can express to her.  Without cutting her "needs" off I mean.